Looking back

I was looking at a post from a guy in the lair. He was asking himself these four question in his post:

1) Why did you start your journey?

2) Where are you now?

3) How far have you progress?

4) Where are you heading to?

I am too shy to post there so I will just share it right here. It is such question that I had not ask myself for a long time. And I kind of lost track of myself.

1) Why did you started your journey?

Obviously I was frustrated. Frustrated about myself not being able get over with this area of my life. It had haunted me for years after years. There are just heaps of action in my life that I caused by this frustration. I start playing basketball because of it. I start play band because of it. I start do crazy stuff on stage because of it. and many thing else...

At one point I had decided to live an identity that I would like to be. A public relation manager. I set some ideal self for myself which now I found childish and funny, but this ideal self has lead me to the community. That is where it all started.

2) Where are you now?

I am in a point where am half satisfy with what I can do. I am able to do what some man on earth would not even dream of doing. I have the choice in my life now that I do not suffer from the desperate mind in my past. Yet I still have a long way to go thinking about what I can potentially achieve. Now I just found a crew of people who share similar belief and goal in life and I am very grateful that this happened to me.

3) How far have you progress?

There is a lot of stuff that I had achieved. One of the most important one is that I become confident about myself. I use to be very insecure about my height and my skin conditions. Now these things does not matter to me because I know they does not define me as a person.

I also gained lots of social skill. Skills that I had never imagine I could have. My whole life I just thought you either have it or you don't. But now I understand that if you belief you can achieve and you are starving for your goal. Nothing can not be achieved.

4) Where are you heading to?

I am going to actively doing stuff to improve my life. Because I understand now, that every great journey is made with a thousands of little steps. And if I persist in getting my goal achieve. I will succeed. And I am currently enrolled in many activity related to this area of my life. So yes. I will eventually arrive to the spot of where my goal lies.

Finally, I just like to add for no logical reason.

I am such a lucky bastard. ;]